Memelihara didikan

Memelihara didikan.
How?
Apakah didikan bias dipelihara? Diberi makan? Diberi minum? Dibuatkan kandang? Dimandikan? Apakah didikan itu hidup sehingga dia harus dipelihara?
Bisa juga didikan itu tidak bisa hidup sendiri sehingga kita harus merawatnya. Didikan seperti seekor kucing yang hilang yang tiba-tiba datang ke dalam rumah kita lewat pintu kucing yang terbuka. Kucing ini membutuhkan tempat perteduhan, kehangatan dan kasih sayang terlebih dari kebutuhannya mencari makanan untuk perutnya.
Apa yang bisa kita lakukan jika didikan kita kondisikan sebagai kucing tersebut? Kadang dia datang secara tiba-tiba dan tak disangka. Kita harus siap menanganinya. Saat kita memeliharanya, itu akan menjadi sebuah sukacita tersendiri.
Seringkali bagi kita orang yang bukan penyayang binatang, merawat sesuatu bukanlah hal yang mudah. Tetapi coba bayangkan saja, bagaimana jika Anda diberi sebuah mobil Ferrari versi terbaru yang Anda bisa gunakan kapanpun dan dimanapun juga. Mobil ini diserahkan kepada Anda untuk dipelihara. Yang jelas Anda tetap punya pilihan, menerima atau menolaknya. Saya pilih menerimanya. Saya akan sangat bersukacita bila punya satu dan pasti saya akan merawatnya (mungkin bukan saya, sopir saya yang akan melakukannya), tetapi pastilah kita akan menyayanginya dan tidak akan membiarkan sesuatu yang buruk terjadi padanya.
Begitu juga, saya piker, yang seharusnya kita lakukan untuk memelihara didikan. Mungkin didikan ini datang dengan tidak sengaja, contoh yang sangat dasar: suatu saat ayah kita datang dengan tidak ada angin dan hujan langsung marah-marah sama kita. Dia mengingatkan tentang kecerobohan yang terjadi berbulan-bulan lalu. Reaksi kita? Mari kita coba untuk menerimanya dengan lapang dan memikirkan apa yang didikan itu katakan. Setelah kita mengerti apa yang harus kita perbaiki, pasti kita bisa terus berjalan menurut didikan itu hari demi hari dan hidup kita pun akan beruntung.

Selalu ada saja

Terbersit kebaikan yang kuterima,
besar kecil dan tak sama,
tapi selalu ada saja.

Tak tahu dari siapa,
tak kira dari mana,
tak hitung butuh berapa.

Aku tahu Tuhan ada,
Dia yang buat kuberada,
dan kub'ri yang terbaik bagiNya.

Live my life to the fullest

Hi, everybody. It's been over than a month that I have taken down notes of my experience. Well, it doesn't mean that if i don't write anything, nothing extraordinary happen to me. In fact, I have been through significant turning points. Don't worry, I will write them later. For today, I got a message for my life, "Live my life to the fullest."

I can't remember since when my life became so dull. It's like I didn't have any more spirit to do something big, to excel myself, to plan my future and even to study for school. I just took everything in raw and wanted not to process it. I saw my life going by. Day by day, night after night, I live a life like that. Moreover, recently I think I can live without the I.

I spent yesterday for friends, today for my desire and tomorrow for fun. What an enjoyable life I had.

I was kept having fun until yesterday I realized that there is something wrong with my life. Indeed, I did not know what's wrong and then I asked.

An answer came this morning. I am created not for myself but for the I. If I am living a life like this it's for me and not for Him. I should change.

I was reminded too about the workers who had been given 5 minas, 2 minas and 1 mina. The worker with 5 came back with 10. The worker with 2 brought back 4 minas. And the one who only had one mina return without multiplicating the mina and he was condemned. But, today I learnt not from the one with one mina but from the ones with 5 and 2 minas.

They both had similarities. They worked and they got a return of 100%. 5 x 2 = 10. 2 x 2 = 4.
Though the amount of mina trusted for them was not the same one was as productive as the other.

100% profit? It's quite impossible to be realized for these days. A SMART goal with 100% profit is also too crazy. But this is what the I desired and it is possible. If not, He would not made an example like that.

He wants our life to profit him 100% and not just 30% or 50% or 80% or 99.9%. It's 100% of my best that I should offer Him.

I know it will not be easy to do so. But the most important thing for now is I got the spirit to 100%. And now I don't have time to waste. Everymoment is precious.

Mazmur 73:21-28 (Psalm 73:21-28)

21 Ketika hatiku merasa pahit
dan buah pinggangku
menusuk-nusuk rasanya,

22 aku dungu dan tidak mengerti,
seperti hewan aku di dekat-Mu.

23 tetapi aku tetap di dekat-Mu;
Engkau memegang tangan kananku.

24 Dengan nasihat-Mu Engkau
menuntun aku,
Dan kemudian Engkau mengangkat aku
ke dalam kemuliaan.

25 Siapa gerangan ada padaku di sorga
selain Engkau?
Selain Engkau tidak ada yang kuingini
di bumi.

26 Sekalipun dagingku dan hatiku
habis lenyap,
gunung batuku dan bagianku tetaplah
Allah selama-lamanya.

27 Sebab sesungguhnya, siapa yang
jauh dari pada-Mu akan binasa;
Kaubinasakan semua orang,
yang berzinah dengan meninggalkan Engkau.

28 tetapi aku, aku suka dekat pada Allah;
aku menaruh tempat perlindunganku
pada Tuhan Allah,
supaya dapat menceritakan
segala pekerjaan-Nya.


Psalm 73:21-28 (The Message)

21-24 When I was beleaguered and bitter,
totally consumed by envy,
I was totally ignorant, a dumb ox
in your very presence.
I'm still in your presence,
but you've taken my hand.
You wisely and tenderly lead me,
and then you bless me.

25-28 You're all I want in heaven!
You're all I want on earth!
When my skin sags and my bones get brittle,
God is rock-firm and faithful.
Look! Those who left you are falling apart!
Deserters, they'll never be heard from again.
But I'm in the very presence of God—
oh, how refreshing it is!
I've made Lord God my home.
God, I'm telling the world what you do!

Kami T'rima (We Receive)

Kami yang t’lah ditebus
Dengan darah yang kudus
Mengangkat pujian bagi-Mu

Kami bait kudus-Mu
S’bagai bukti karya-Mu
Nyatakan Kau besar dan hidup

Berlari sampai tujuan
Mendapatkan mahkota kekal

Reff:
Kami t’rima kuasa-Mu Tuhan
Kami t’rima kemenangan yang Engkau sediakan ‘tuk kami bawa
Di setiap langkah
Di mana pun kami berdiri
Ke mana pun kami ‘kan pergi
Di situ pasti mujizat-Mu terjadi
Kami t’rima kuasa-Mu Tuhan
Kami t’rima kuasa-Mu

True Worshiper 2008 - All Things New Album

Before my assessment this morning, this song really rhymed in me. The lyric says "Kami t'rima kuasa-Mu Tuhan. Kami t’rima kemenangan yang Engkau sediakan ‘tuk kami bawa di setiap langkah. Ke mana pun kami ‘kan pergi di situ pasti mujizat-Mu terjadi." It means, "We receive the power of the Lord, we receive the VICTORY that You PROVIDE, ..., wherever we will go, Your miracle surely happens."

One thing I can derive from this song; the I has provided us the victory. I can just receive it only if I know that it is provided already. So, this morning I knew that the victory is there what I only need is open my hand and receive it.

However I need to know the time when the victory will be given too if I am going to receive it. Without timing and effort, I can miss the opportunity. Therefore, I should be watchful anytime.

This afternoon, the assessment came. Praise God, I did it well. I am really glad about the outcome. It is all because of Him, from Him, and for Him.

This semester was really great to be spent with the I. I really thank Him for the faithfulness. Now is the time to enter the new semester! I am excited!

Do I have breakfast already?

For some people breakfast is the most important meal for their day. It provides the energy and strength for them to run their day. If they don't have it, their day might be disastrous. They will not be able to concentrate, will feel really lazy and weak, thus will be frustrated and unable to enjoy the day with big smiles on their mouth.

I am thinking of if our body is like that so my spirit will be. It is not only my body which needs so much energy for the day, my spirit does too. My spirit also works the whole day; accompanying me anytime, guiding me through the road I take, and most of the time helping me to take final decisions. His job is not easy, huh?

This is why I am writing this blog. I was like reminded that somehow when I forgot to read my Life Guidance book, there is somebody starving and still has to do all the job for the day.

How could I be possibly so mean?

So now, every morning I will ask myself, "Do I have breakfast already?"

~ Luke 4:4~

One Remarkable Night Walk

A burst of joy flew into my heart today and made my day wonderful. If I would tell, I would not stop.

The summary:
- I got a surprise this morning; the Invisible is not silent for my prayers =b.
- Friends love Mum's chosen color; sea blue.
- The "humorous" Pa.
- Enjoying the acoustic praise and worship.
- Money in the pocket.
- Small lunch, XL dinner.
- The "Night Walk"

Here the story is:
I directly went home after dinner. It was quite late and I had to walk my way home alone. The bus should come to the bus stop 20 minutes after I left my friend's house. So, I walked quite slow, enjoying the night, since it should only take me 15 minutes walking to the bus stop.

As I was walking I looked up to the sky above and realized there was Purnama, full moon. It shines so wonderfully and so brightly. And also the sky, it was so pure, so clean and so spirit up. The clouds seemed to be swept away together with the light of the moon. God, I really enjoyed staring at the moon, so peaceful and so true.

I kept walking. Once and twice I looked back again to the moon and still was not able to refuse admiring it. It fascinated me until I saw my bus. Too bad, I missed it. Not long after another bus came, and once again I missed it too. I had to wait for 10 minutes then. I was not sad, I ever rejoiced that I can take a lot of pictures of the moon at those minutes of my waiting although those pictures could not really paint the wonders. 10 minutes passed and my bus came. =).

The whole way home, I really did not think that I was walking alone. It was felt that I got accompaniment. Not to scary you, but I did not feel alone. I could feel the presence of the Invisible. He was so real. He was like walking by my side and watching over me.

As I got closer to home I said to myself, "I see and feel winter cold out here, but my heart feels warm inside for I am not alone, I can feel the love."

Good night.

Early Clue for the Wonderful Year

It is 2009 and I am excited enough to see what will happen this year. I do not know about tomorrow and I will never know, only God knows I know. Will it be smooth? Will it be rough? I can not make sure. A message I got at the end of 2008 from the I, "don't worry". So I have no reason not to be excited! I hope everyone of you is excited enough too like me. "Don't worry".

I really do not expect clues come so early. One came on Monday this week. It is entitled, "A Faith Like A Child".

Talking about FAITH, there is one hanging in my room, it tells about this word. The cross like hanging says, "Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see."

To have the faith like a child, what I should do is to just follow direction. A little innocent child would never know if his father led him or asked him to go to the wrong direction, he will not even ask back, he will just go. He trusted his father.

But, so fortunately, the I knows the way, He will not send to wrong places. The only thing I have to do is just follow, like the little child would do.